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Weekend: Rest in Peace Mom + My Favorite Sewing Links

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Nine years ago today, my mother passed away from breast cancer. I remember my dad whispering the news into my ear that morning. I laid in bed for a minute, then went running. My mom started her day with a 6 mile jog and my routine has become a tribute to her. Like Humphrey Bogart said to Ingrid Bergman, “Here’s to looking at you, kid.” Since that day, I have worked out or meditated for up to 90 minutes.

It’s been a rough month; I won’t lie. With Myshka passing and my mom’s anniversary occurring within a couple weeks of each other, I keep thinking that they’re both gone. I met Myshka shortly after my mom passed and she became a maternal figure. I’m not depressed – I am still sewing and going to work, putting it as much effort and care as before. But as I go about my day, both are in the back of my mind.

I talk a lot about my mom and that’s because her sickness was a huge part of my childhood. She was diagnosed with breast cancer when I was in sixth grade and until my senior year of high school, cancer was always present. I grew up fast. I had to. I remember being 16-years-old – my mom was getting treatment at MD Anderson Cancer Center in Houston, Texas while I was in Florida grocery shopping and paying bills for my family. Her spine collapsed that same year, I was a sophomore, and she was given a 3% chance of walking and a 1% chance of living past 6 months. My mom wore several wigs, but her favorite was red in honor of me. She was also in a wheelchair the last year of her life. You don’t forget that.

While my mom didn’t know me as the seamstress I am today, she would be proud to know that her daughter has a passion. At least I hope so. Myshka, of course, was my biggest cheerleader. Both would want me to continue working hard towards my goal, and that’s what I’m going to do.

Okay, enough sappiness! It’s important that I share personal information because I am a real person with feelings.

So, thank you to these sewers, whose posts put a smile on my face this week.

I’m not an Easter person, my preferred holidays are Thanksgiving and Christmas, but Sarah has me excited the upcoming holiday. I want a lavender, DVF skirt too!

Emily had some fun with soft bras – Cloth Habit’s Watson, Colette Florence and more.

In need of a retro playlist to listen to while sewing? Rochelle created one for her Sew for Cotton challenge, but you can listen even if you’re not participating! She also provides a desktop background.

Carolina is a vision in her Holly Jumpsuit. I can’t wait to see this chick in May. NYC here I come!

Can’t get enough of Dixie’s cut out dress.

19 Comments

  1. Reply

    Diane A

    Hi Maddie,
    Thanks so much for sharing. I found your post very touching and truthful. I think your Mom would be most proud of your amazing work and blog. The blog world so appreciates you!

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      maddie

      Thanks Diane. That means more than you know.

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    Lola

    That was a very lovely tribute to your mom and we can all agree that you’re mom is looking down on you and is exceptionally proud of the woman you have become. Losing someone will never get easy but as time passes the loss becomes less loss and more nostalgia and melancholy.

    Can’t wait to see you in May.. time needs to hurry up already!

    hugs xxxxxxxxx

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      Cindy Meredith

      I am so sorry you lost your mom so young. I lost my dad while in my mid20’s to cancer after a long battle as well. He always shared his emotions about his illness and early death and that helped us all deal with it when it happened. I am old enough to be your mother sweet girl, and I can tell you without a doubt that she is proud of you! I am impressed by your sewing passion myself. I do not sew lingerie but I do love watching your process. You are so detail oriented. I am not so I love watching the process in others. Keep living a beautiful life. It’s the best way to honor your losses.

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        maddiemadalynne

        Thank you Cindy! I’m sorry to hear about your loss as well. I’m sure your dad and my mom our watching over us.

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    Victoria B.

    I can’t imagine how hard the past few weeks have been for you. Hugs from afar. Your mom would have been proud–you rock at what you do, girl!

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      maddiemadalynne

      Thank you for the virtual hugs!

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    Veronica Darling (@veronicadarling)

    Oh, your mother must be with you always… especially tough during sad times.

    I just have to say, I’ve been away from the blogging/sewing world for a bit as I’ve moved and, you know, life. But just wanted to say how wonderful you’ve set up your own world here… you have such a strong identity and it’s just beautiful to be personal like this on your blog… well done on what you’ve achieved so far, and keep at it!

    xoxo

    • Reply

      maddie

      How sweet of you! I happy with how Madalynne has developed. I was hesitant to be truthful today, but I felt it was the right occasion.

      Good luck moving, unpacking and such. I did it last year and it takes so much time and effort!

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    alecia

    What a lovely tribute

    I am reading this on the 7th anniversary of the death of one of my close childhood friends. She died waiting for a heart transplant when she was 14. Seeing illness and dealing with death changes you so much. Every day I do something new or hit a milestone I am faced with the sadness and guilt of knowing that was something she never got to do. We all have different experiences, but nothing changes the fact that illness and death are the cruelest of cruel things to those left behind.

    I wish you all the happiness and hope you find all the strength you can. Life after all it often too short.

    Alecia xx

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    Gemma

    Thank you for the ever honest post and the links have me delightfully curious!

    Sending best wishes your way xx

    Gemma

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    Rachel

    Thank you for sharing your heart and soul with us on the blog. Thank you for being you!

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    linaandvi@gmail.com

    Agree, thanks for sharing this honest account! There are so many different facets to life, and not all of us have the courage or choose to talk about them. The fact that you open up in a public space is admirable. For me, reading sewing how-to books is productive and useful, but reading sewing blogs like your own, provide so much more depth and education because personality/real life shines through and becomes relatable. Thank you!

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    Wonderland Boudoir

    I totally understand where you are coming from. My father passed away 11/9/2010 and it was right after his favorite holiday, Thanksgiving. The holiday is so hard now that I don’t even want to celebrate it anymore. My mom’s birthday is really hard for me too because we had to bury him on her birthday. Not the best of times… but I do understand what you mean in this post. I am sure she is watching down on you right now and loving every move you’re making.

    http://www.WonderlandBoudoir.com/blog

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      maddie

      I’m so sorry to hear about your father. My mom’s anniversary is not close to any holiday, so I can only imagine how hard it is for you. I’m sure your dad is watching over you.

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    goodbyevalentino

    I’m happy to know I helped put a smile on your face during this season of sadness for you, Maddie 🙂 Surely your mother is gleaming with delight as she watches your beautiful accomplishments from above. Best wishes to you.

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      maddie

      Thank you Sarah!

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    rebercaca

    you sharing is so nice,i will try it this weekend.
    dress blog

  12. Reply

    Ashleigh

    Thank you for sharing your experience, Maddie. Sending you love and light to help heal you heart. I am so sure your Mom, where in the universe she may be, is very proud you and all your success.

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